Dearest Readers,
Wake up in New Orleans and bed down in San Antonio. Now I know how rock stars feel.
I’m here with a whole bunch of friends and the transition from lone wolf to pack animal is requiring some effort on my part. The temptation is to shut down, retreat, close myself off. This is old behaviour.
When I was a kid one of the ways I would seek attention was to become sullen and morose. That way everybody would ask me, “What’s wrong?” I didn’t do this deliberately. In fact, I had no idea my behaviour was that calculated. It took quite a lot of Inner Work to see this pattern revealed.
When that Old BS resurfaced yesterday I was surprised. It constantly astonishes me to discover that when I am feeling insecure or vulnerable the old belief systems can return in a flash.
So, the solution. I’ve recognized what’s going on, now what? Become willing to change and to let go. Share with someone the truth about how I’m really feeling. Be gentle and loving with myself. Think before I speak so I don’t say something I’ll regret later.
When I take this kind of Healing Action things begin to shift and I find myself returning to Grace.
Ah, yes. There is more work to be done. I’m not perfect yet.
Inspiring Message of the Day: When I am feeling particularly insecure I will take the steps necessary to shift my Energy back to Love. It is not easy to do this work but I am ever willing to change and be changed by Right Thinking and Action.
